MY LIFE

my grandma told me on the phone tonight that she called my cousin to see when she works and told her that i needed my hair cut, so threatening to cut my own hair actually did some good. i was actially thinking about it and i suppose i could've done it today because today was one of the days that i didn't have anything going on. i think that i'm just going to get my hair trimmed because i don't know what else to do with my hair. my cousin might have some ideas too, so i can always ask her for ideas also. everyone has been asking me when i'm going to be starting classes and i would like to know the same thing. classes probably have already started. i thought that i was going for the fall semester but my stupid independent living services worker is helping me get things lined up for school and she's always cancelling our damn appointments like yesterday, for example. the advisor of brown college (who i'm working with) also didn't seem like she was in too much of a hurry for me to get my degree. I DON'T WANT TO STAY IN COLLEGE ALL MY LIFE, I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO. I WANT TO LIVE MY LIFE. the advisor and my independent living services worker don't seem to want to grasp that reality. so frustrating. people are controlling my life in all aspects, if it's not school, it's where i'm living (although this place is a hell of a lot better than the previous dump that i lived at). IT'S MY LIFE, I SHOULD GET TO CHOOSE WHAT I WANT.